As my school years went by, I learnt to put my problem to the back of my mind. I had my circle of friends and the fact I was overweight never came up. I was never bullied or teased because of my size and I was accepted for who I was. I know this isn't the case for many teenagers and children.
It was only when my year 11 prom was approaching that I finally became aware of what I was doing to myself. I was scared of getting a dress, just like my friends, so I wore a fancy floaty top and black trousers to hide myself. I was ashamed of myself. Baggy clothes were to become my choice of clothes for the next few years.
My self-confidence was low and I tried to diet but nothing every came off. Were now around the time when The Atkins' Diet was popular, my sister bought the book and I thought I'd give it a try. I only read to page 3. I slipped back into that vicious cycle again.
Years I spent like this and I had a new circle of friends and was working full-time so I never really again about my weight.
Back in 2011 my sister asked me if she could have a word with me. She's seen an advert for Slimming World and asked if I wanted to go with her and join and we could loose weight together. I was scared. Scared of standing on the scales for the 1st time in so many years. But I went and decided to join, I thought after listening to the new member talk that this might be the help I needed and if I had my sister to do it with, maybe I would be able to succeed.
I quit before reaching my 2 stone!
Lots of things were happening in my life, my family was moving to another country and I was moving in with another relative. I took the opportunity to slim on my own. It worked for while.
I decided going back to Slimming World was my option. I enjoyed food optimising last time. So I re-joined. I managed about 3 months. What is wrong me I thought! I wanted to be slim but why do I keep sabotaging myself.
Fast forward to September 2015. I had just been diagnosed with a gallstone. This was the 1st time I had any health problems. It was the wake up call I needed. My consultant at the hospital advised me that I would need to loose weight before surgery. So attempt number 3 at Slimming World began.
This was the focus I needed. And to add to the extra focus and motivation, one of my lovely friends had asked me to be one of her bridesmaids.
Now, April 2016, I'm 2 stone 8lbs lighter. The most I have ever lost. And better still, I'm having my surgery in less than 2 weeks!
I believe that it I need something to focus on to help me succeed. With one of my focus points gone now I can focus on getting into a smaller bridesmaid dress :-)
|November 2004, I was at my biggest here|
|May 2003, year 11 prom|